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God，how can I get rid of the bad feeling and my bad habit now? I'm
sure that I didn't want to live my life like this, so boring, and
even feel guilty and no self-confident. All the time I want to do
something meaningful, but the result just hurt me again and agian.
I am the kind of person who complete things depending on my
passion, and if the passion disappears, then my motivity follows,
so that is why I oftenfeel failing because I
can't persist
in something for along time. Just like I can't
get a good achievement in long-distance running, I have no stamina
to do anything except what I really care about and am interested
in, such as some computer games I played in my sophomore
time.
Recently I can't do anything carefully, with a peaceful emotion. I
try to change this situation but it didn't work. Maybe I should
make a big, important, pivotal decision to change it like study
harder, or write an another paper. OK, just do it! Sometime I must
treat myself much harder so as I could be much stronger. I never
make any promises to anybody, even to myself, and before I thought
it's a good habit because I always remember a saying,"never promise
what you can't do", but now I think it's time to change my view. I
should promise what I can do and what I should do, and don't
promise what I never can't do.
OK,
today's self-examination is enough. I should do
my first promise. I promise that I will complete my new paper
briefly in one week, yeah, I should make this promise to urge
myself work harder.
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